Now it's 5:06 a.m. . . .

I can't believe this.

I woke up at 12:00 p.m. today, but still.

I am so far from being able to sleep. And I was watching my caffeine intake today.

I guess my deposit hasn't gone through??

I spent so much money today too. I bought the Chickering Beowulf, and the Sacks book on Elegy. . . that's $30+. And I bought dinner and beer. That was $23. And I bought lunch. That was $6. And I bought coffee and bread. That was $4. A whopping $40 on food. . . that would be $1200 a month if I did that habitually. Which, to be honest, I don't.

What was my time like? Well, I got up at 12:00 p.m. Took about an hour or an hour and a half to get ready, talking to my roommates. Went to class. Got caught up in a conversation with a lady at the coffee shop; 20 minutes. Left class. Bought coffee; spent an hour or so looking for Sacks' English Elegy; took the bus to the gym. I guess all of that time in town took about three hours, including the ride home. That's a lot of wasted time. And I worked out. And then I came home and wasted thirty minutes. And then I went to Uno's and worked and ate, and then I came home and played on the Internet and worked some more.

Tomorrow I need to file that financial aid paperwork. I didn't do it even though it was supposed to be my #1. I have about six #1 priorities right now, and I am scared about catching up in my non-officially registered classes, and I am scared about finals. And I am deeply, deeply scared that I can't seem to maintain even the most important habits for my well-being and that I waste as much time every day as I spend. And my spiritual life is at zero.